big screen or just nocturnal

or stress, of course... nocturnal definitely... big tv, working tv is more like it.... there's nothing on but reruns that i have seen before, but at least i like the characters... all my imaginary friends (not all my children) in the later night reruns of evening dramas... ncis... house.... bones... and recently, burn notice... the late night line-up (when family guy and futurama and craig ferguson isn't calling me away from the life-death dramas... a few other odds and ends, but there's just too much nocturn and not enough sleep-need to get me to stay in bed alone for a whole night...

the big screen hd is nice too...

x-what?

ever notice how utterly repressed scully was in the x-files?... i mean, she had all of these haunting issues and did so much to distract herself with pseudo-science (the show really had no science in it, i mean, compare it with csi or ncis, it was geared toward conspiracy theory lovers and people who probably watch all the ghost and paranormal shows now... i wonder sometimes, now that time has passed and i see reruns in a different light, why i liked it so much... it was in that film noir stylee i supposed that made it a bit intriguing, but the acting, well, as much as i loved mulder and scully at the time, was pretty flat, stoic, and adversarial... so different than the family devotion feeling the acting and characters share in ncis...i guess it was the odd storylines that bordered on on outer limits and other exploration of the unknown shows that i enjoy... maybe i felt a little sorry for scully and related to the quixotic quest for truth that mulder portrayed... the government conspiracy stuff gets old fast for me, but it played it's role in the attraction from time to time...

oh well, stuck here with my injured foot i am watching way too much tv and overall, tv has been unsatisfying for me today, but x-files going down the tube?... maybe watching a dozen episodes would return the show back to it's top ten place in my list of favorite hows, but i think for now, it drops out... not that this is earth shaking news or anything, but then, this is just my background tv blog, so what did you expect? :)

thank goodness for youtube :)

there's always ncis

seems that no matter how many times i've seen them, i will choose ncis reruns over most other background tv every evening when i actually turn on the tv... though the final three on idol might catch my eye for a moment... the one i picked way back when is still there, though she might not be old enough to reach the top spot, she's made and i am satisfied, knowing the business the business gives kids and what the show is looking for... but it is the characters on ncis that draw me in because the core theme is they care about each other so much that they would die for each other...

like really seriously close family, or so it seems...

it appeals to that deep part of me that longs for such bonds... imagining they are real is as close as i get these days... how's that for something deep and heavy and meaningful and personal out of background tv? :)

choices...

choices... there could be a lot more of these background tv entries, but sometimes i don't type what i am glancing up at... understating the obvious can get boring even for brilliant word-addicts, ya know?... sarcasm?...

tonight, after some more bad sciu-fi, i looked around the channels... there's top favorite sweet eye candy (milla j) and unrelenting perseverance (fsvorite qualities) of resident evil... practical philofophy of forrest gump... cute psych... has never been as good as the original snl... the first round of the nba playoffs... a few dozen other movies... food, comedy, history, science, or cartoon channel fare... many dozens of other channels... is it obvious that i lose interest in tv rather easily?...

random channel switching might occur between typing...

bad sci-fi

bad acting and worse writing has occupied the tv for the last hour or few... sci-fi channel movies can be so very terribly put together... i guess sci-fi fans in general have low critical standard or this station would never survive... cliche's like teenagers will save the world... there must be boy girl, cute and without excess body fat, of course... and clothing partially torn off whenever possible... and each have a parent lost and alone who fall in love with each other after the kids save them, naturally (or else we need the estranged parents who are brought back together in the end)... and this is especially good with brilliant misunderstood kids in trouble or in school detention cuz you've got to disregard rules and break stuff to save the world, right?... i mean, you really must be ready for the next extinction level event, right?... fear-based everything attracts most humans i suppose... i prefer hitchhiker's guide walkabouts and the less violent alternative perspective sci-fi found in some of heinlein, bradbury, and asimov, personally... but they did not need contorted reasoning and ridiculously illogical events to set up momentary visual effects (usually unnecessary and often that have nothing to do with the story) and actually had imaginations... for me, tv sci-fi (syfy, now) is a bit of eye candy in the background and an occasional interesting idea put into a story... tonight bad sci-fi distracts me from foot pain that keeps me stuck sitting here... elevate, ice, rest, bad sci-fi...

would rather play with you :)

watching more again

a bit more, at least... and here i am again letting you know just in case you want to come over and watch with me... i mean, someday we'll be old and have little more energy than needed for tv watching... or maybe we'll break a leg together (grumbles) or some such fun... between playing the game (ncaa football, i mean, where have you been?)... monday nights sci-fi (being human and lost girl, not top favs, but occasionally interesting enough to keep me coming back when i remember and am here) and tuesday nights ncis mostly... and now, eureka is back, though as i mentioned, disappointing so far... ncis reruns occupy the background more than anything mostly because i enjoy the characters and some interesting plot lines for a cop show, still, mostly the characters... the mentalist and stargate:sg1 falls in there too... reruns, mostly... relating to characters is what attracts me most to tv shows... not just for the visual cuteness or libido, interactions that seem like genuine trust and caring is very appealing to the part of me who enjoys imaginary friends...

what?... you don't have imaginary friends? :)

human ego

after months of forgetting i even have cable, i put aside the video game distraction and watch the odder side of tv, sci fi, being human and lost girl and sure, always the outsider with some deep dark secret super power, are we really such an egocentric species that it has to be all about being human?... add the stupidity of self-destruction and the weepy emo weakness of the glimmer of potential for goodness and any non-human species with superior senses or powers feeling like they are missing something is as delusional as the typical human... but then, these shows are made for humans by humans, after all... duh...

is it the fear of the aloneness of reality that drives humans into the blind acceptance of self-destructive seductions or pathetic delusions just to give us the sense of belonging and being right and not being alone and... whatever?...

or something like whatever...

instant eh...

ok, so i took the day off and am relaxing and wrote most of the morning and decided it was time for lunch and since there was nothing on tv and tv keeps me company when i am eating alone, i decided to check out the in demand stuff and found once upon a time, a new show i wanted to see and so, on it went...

that was about five minutes ago...

and here i am already, the first scene turned me off enough to come here and put the tv where it usually resides, in the background... alas, leave it to tv writers to start out programmed and predictable and standard and unfortunately, formula...

. . .

scene two appeals a but more because i love the main character's face (a favorite from house... i never watched how i met your mother cuz i am not much into formula sit-coms and i didn't know she was associate producer on glee which surprised me) and while i don't like the over-done naivety of the teacher (i never watched the stuff she's been in, ed or big love, so she is brand new to me), i love her face too, so there may be some hope as faces are a primary attraction for me to continue watching something and there is the appropriately named mr. gold (rumplestilskin) who played a good love-hate character on star trek:universe and has been in a bunch of films, but they need much better writers to really become what i would have hoped this sort of idea could become and it is a wonderful idea...

it'll take more suspension of reality than it should (because of the poor writing and mediocre acting, especially of the male lead and evil witch - so far), but i will probably give this show a show if only in on-demand when i have time and in the background... would be more fun with a tv-watching partner of course...

i think i'll put the last four episides of fringe on in the background now...

the voice

ok, i am biased, but i have adored dia frampton since before she was legal when i saw her grinning like a kid in a candy store at warped tour after knocking out a set of rock and roll that had such a unique twist the crowds surrounded the myspace tent to try to see who was making those beautiful sounds... and now, as if i was clairvoyant (or just lucky to be in the right place at the right time), i am watching dia in the finals on the voice, a commercially packaged singing contest that has some great talent and i am torn...

leave meg and dia behind?...

a few years ago i told dia she needs to be ready to shoot the moon, to be touched by an angel, to skyrocket to fame (or shyrocket, to be dia and play with words) and i hoped she'd be ready, that she would not let fear or insecurity or self-doubt get in her way... and that she would find a way to stay in touch with her roots, to not let fame shake her from her core...

the moment is approaching fast...

there will be no losers on this show, but winning will be the zoom, the moment... will she be torn away from her family and friends and how will that affect her?... will she be sucked into the adoration and usery that has abused and destroyed so many?... please no... i wish with all my heart that she finds an anchor, a link to herself that cannot be broken... a way to not get hurt... it is not too late (i won't believe it, even after all the experiences)...

all this from background tv?...

lol, lam, laa...

go dia :)

four stars?

home early from softball and looking for something to watch on tv, finding nothing but a sci-fi movie called children of men that the tv gave four stars and maybe i missed something good in the first 20 minutes that would change my mind, but watching the second 20 minutes i am wondering how this film could get four stars, unless it's on a scale to ten stars...

so predictable, so cheesy (church music when the man cries after the girl dies, holy obvious trust the hero moment, really, i mean, rather than actually using dialogue, storyline, and actions, but then, that is the delusional blind faith culture we live in so why bother with imagination, logic, reasoning, rational thought, and intelligence, after all)... the british accents are so think the dialogue is wasted in many places, but then, that is the british way quite often... halfway through all i see is a sadly poorly put together film)... on to something else...

the voice perhaps... christina is not at her best, sounds out of shape... ceelo sounded surprisingly good... blake is country, nothing spectacular, but the formula is obvious try to attract a crossover audience, what else can be said... the issue for me is that the judges are singers, artists, talent that have professional coaches and trainers and managers and agents and engineers to make them sound even better, so really, are they the right people, the experts at developing talent?... the best music producers do not perform because their talent is building a team that creates the package that is the artist...

apparently the producers did their job (and the real work) cuz the singers are already screened and the judges have been coached to play their parts in yet another staged reality show... but there may be some excellent voices to listen to if the scripted drama and judges egos don't get in the way...

meanwhile, backgroun tv is doing it's job, at least minimally, giving me a distraction to clear my mind and focus my mind on meaningless banter so i can either relax and nod off or drift into my own world of rhymes and babble and the fun of being me...

what's that about the egos? :)

yeah, friends

lol, yup, that's life in my head these days, or years, to be more precise... the past year or so, especially since jackson moved in (two years or so then?), the characters on ncis have become friends (cuz we share the show and it's always more fun to get into a show with a real world frield) in that sense of i care about them and want them to be real and stay in this life (even if they never become real offline)... they remind me of people i once knew, a little, even though there's not a pure libbo fantasy on the show...

it's also that the show is on several nights a week for most of the evening and i didn't watch it while it was on... so i relax when i get a few nights a week with my ncis friends play their parts in the show while cooking or cleaning or browsing the web or whatever... it's reached a point where i find an episode i've seen about every third episode, or maybe every fourth episode, but more and more, reruns... alas, it will come to an end eventually, but until it does, every new episode is getting to know my friends better...

some days are like that (life is illusion, after all :)

idol 13?

not season 13, but the jump from 24 to 13 was kind of sudden, especially since the judges are being like uber saccharin nice like nobody wants to be blunt or the bad guy… too much gooey cheerleader crap becomes fake after a while though… so i tune out the judges and listen to the voices and i like some of what i hear and the top three i picked last week changed a bit, but number one is still number one, big time… two and three slipped a bit, but i wasn’t paying enough attention (and i tuned in a bit late) to remember the names of the guys (and they were boys) who might have slipped into two or three… my three remain in the top five for now though… maybe i'll pay more attention next week...

remembering snl

a long long time ago (and i don't mean american pie or even a linda ronstadt song), i found myself semi-wasted after a tour in the us army where drugs were easier to get than sex, but just barely, and both were a lot easier to get than arrested for carrying a gun on a white house tour, but that’s beside the point… where was i?... ah yes, remembering snl… i started this entry an hour and a half ago… and with jim carrey as the guest host, i decided to watch… a bit earlier i was on my way out to play games with friends when the jets-colts game got interesting so i decided to continue watching and by the time it was over, i decided to cook some dinner here and watch snl…

it was a long long time ago (is this where we came in?) when i was sitting home, or perhaps i was in pompano beach visiting friends, memory is not perfect and location was not as important as the memory of the feeling, the gleefully awakening of the feeling of revelation when something new emerges from the ether (or everything outside the head) as i watched the first episode of saturday night light… that first show was followed by week after week of the most different comedy i had ever seen on television and for almost two years i was drawn to watch every almost saturday night…

tonight was, as has been the case every year since those first shows, disappointing, but in that it rekindled memories of the original gleeful feeling, it was well worth staying home for… and here i am now, remembering another fond memory, lays barbecue potato chips, while eating the baked version thinking how lays baked barbecue potato chips taste much like pringles, which is quite disappointing as well… with each passing year everything seems to be more and more processed, less and less fresh, and i wonder how long the human race can continue like this…

and when will the next gleeful awakening feeling of revelation come? :)

mostly sports

tv has been mostly sports with some re-runs of ncis tossed in and the occasional cartoon or sci-fi distraction... life has been too busy for much of anything else... i've even been choosing music and browsing/reading the web and enjoy exploring youtube more than commercial toob lately... so what's new on your set?...

family guy

one of the funniest animated scenes is also one of the grossest and if you've ever seen it, you might agree, or not, but when i see peter griffin strip out of his cop costume at meg's bachelorette party and juggle his blubber i am almost grossed out until he ass-dances with meg's face at which point i am grossed out but what breaks me up every time is the silent surprise of meg's hands reaching around in front her face after peter pulls away and for a moment it's like "what's she doing?" and "what's going on? and "what's different?" and of course "how gross" as we look for brown smudges on her face until suddenly you realize that her glasses are gone and two plus two suggests they got stuck in peter's fast ass and that blubber is suddenly funnier than gross...

just saying, seth mcfarlane is a fuckin genius...

sg:u

star gate: universe is still as it first came across to me, a cross between several popular shows of the day, especially what i've heard of lost and that taints it for me for i never could find my way into lost as it reminded me too much of survivor and that was just a step away from big brother and all the other psuedo-reality shows that were pandering to the most banal base aspects of human stupidity and fear and stereotyping... and then there are slightly religious undertones showing through that are even worse, but that is the worst part of human creativity, the lack of it... always returning to the same fear of death and the walk into the light explanation for what happens after death, complete with angel wings for those who need them...

but it's all that's left of the star gate series, so i'll keep hoping there is less focus on the same old same old human archetypes and a chance there might be an original thought, the hope of sci-fi dreamer...

college football

it's not as much fun as it used to be, especially watching along, but that is partially because it is early in the season and i have no ties to any school in particular and i am not playing any fantasy college games and the commercials test my limits for banality and the games are a bit boring cuz some of the popular teams are way overrated (at least in this area) and there is a wonderfully needy doggy begging non-stop for attention and exercise and sitting home along with him means he expects constant interaction and looks so sad when i want to write or watch tv or just close my eyes and relax in the living room, but he is lovable, even as a constant shadow :)

the best thing about the college football saturday was the food, new york deli ordered in by mail for the first time in more than ten years... it was an impulse late thursday night after someone on facebook reminded me that katz's deli on houston did mail order via fedex... the rest of the day was boring blowouts and a few close games where coaches made big mistakes (spurrier putting in a freshman who is not as good a passer as the veteran who was having a great game until the first five minutes of the fourth quarter) for the last two drives of the game when they were eight points behind was just dumb ego and the freshman threw two interceptions to prove the bad coaching move was a bad coaching move)...

and the commercials, sheesh, they are worse than ever... i am obviously watching too much tv lately, so that's gonna change... how have you been? :)

youtube

i must admit that lately, youtube has been stiff (no pun or double entendre intended, i mean, youtube is not tube8, after all... what?) competition for the tv in recent months and you can get a bit of a taste for what i mean in the new links blog if you have the time (all we need are a few hundred hours in each day and a few hundred more years in each life, aye?)... even as i considered all the shows i might want to watch if i am home in front of the tv, the computer sits right next to the chair and often shares my attention and more often lately replaces the tv after prime time (thought there is still a bit of a draw for some celebs on letterman and craig, well, if he was on earlier i'd watch regularly, but many nights when i am awake past prime time {which is most}, youtube has me turning the tv off, especially past 2:07am (and that's what i learned on the show tonight, craig)...

snarf :)

saturday night crisis

none these days as i am usually out somewhere away from a tv on saturday nights and i don't think there's anything i feel like i'm missing...

pity, i know... snurkle :)

thursday night crisis

not much to say, with american idol and so you think you can dance gone for now, there's just one show i want to watch on thursdays and that is fringe, though the mentalist used to appeal to me (and i am not sure what replaced it, probably something jackson chooses when we watch on thursdays, but there is thursday night football that takes me away most thursday nights so i will have to catch fringe in on-demand reruns)... and then, there is football season to consider as they hand thursdasy night games on quite often... but that's all thursday night offers for now and i'd rather be playing softball :)