ncis, weird

ncis starts up again next week and nobody to watch it with me (so weird that i am so into those characters when the concept, military cop show, is so not me... but the characters are my friends even if they wouldn't like me and i wouldn't like them in the real world {i mean, if they were real, that is}... a weird sort of illusion, these tv relationships)...

i really miss sharing the illusions... the stories... tv series... the movies, epic emo... the books, whole new universes... even in the background, nobody shares them today... but (with a nod to richard bach, even), i really miss making them real with someone in a shared illusion :)

the voice

ok, i am biased, but i have adored dia frampton since before she was legal when i saw her grinning like a kid in a candy store at warped tour after knocking out a set of rock and roll that had such a unique twist the crowds surrounded the myspace tent to try to see who was making those beautiful sounds... and now, as if i was clairvoyant (or just lucky to be in the right place at the right time), i am watching dia in the finals on the voice, a commercially packaged singing contest that has some great talent and i am torn...

leave meg and dia behind?...

a few years ago i told dia she needs to be ready to shoot the moon, to be touched by an angel, to skyrocket to fame (or shyrocket, to be dia and play with words) and i hoped she'd be ready, that she would not let fear or insecurity or self-doubt get in her way... and that she would find a way to stay in touch with her roots, to not let fame shake her from her core...

the moment is approaching fast...

there will be no losers on this show, but winning will be the zoom, the moment... will she be torn away from her family and friends and how will that affect her?... will she be sucked into the adoration and usery that has abused and destroyed so many?... please no... i wish with all my heart that she finds an anchor, a link to herself that cannot be broken... a way to not get hurt... it is not too late (i won't believe it, even after all the experiences)...

all this from background tv?...

lol, lam, laa...

go dia :)

yeah, friends

lol, yup, that's life in my head these days, or years, to be more precise... the past year or so, especially since jackson moved in (two years or so then?), the characters on ncis have become friends (cuz we share the show and it's always more fun to get into a show with a real world frield) in that sense of i care about them and want them to be real and stay in this life (even if they never become real offline)... they remind me of people i once knew, a little, even though there's not a pure libbo fantasy on the show...

it's also that the show is on several nights a week for most of the evening and i didn't watch it while it was on... so i relax when i get a few nights a week with my ncis friends play their parts in the show while cooking or cleaning or browsing the web or whatever... it's reached a point where i find an episode i've seen about every third episode, or maybe every fourth episode, but more and more, reruns... alas, it will come to an end eventually, but until it does, every new episode is getting to know my friends better...

some days are like that (life is illusion, after all :)